i use to be an verbal exhibitionist. now i'm an academic. now i'm mute. closed. pulling the covers around the body of my writing. don't look at me.

learning to say to say to say
what? learning to say
how
to say what?
learning to speak it,
how? what?
everything
learning everything
to say everything to say
it.
say it
say it
say it,
say what?
how?